It has been a long time since I’ve sat down to write a blog post. Then again, it has been a long time since I have done anything with this blog except move it around. If I ever had a readership, they are long gone, and who can blame them? For a while, I was trying to pursue becoming a regular blogger, be well-known, and be seen as someone with something to say. That goes against who I am in reality.
In reality, I’m an introverted geek who likes tinkering with technology, rides motorcycles, works on cars and houses, likes to go camping and spend time in nature, and generally tries to be a good human being. I care about my family deeply, I volunteer as an EMT in the rural community that I live in, and take time to pursue a gaggle of interests from hunting to playing guitar. When time and life allow, I also like to train in BJJ.
In the past, I have tried hard to keep my work and personal lives separate. At one point I was trying to keep this blog 100% professional and keep other interests compartmentalized in other places. When I would try to keep up with blogging in this manner, it twisted my mental head space up in knots. That’s just not who I am. I’m a DBA who has way too many interests. I’m not even sure I’m purely a DBA anymore. Maybe just a student of technology.
Life is messy…
I have lived. I have made choices - some good and some not so good. This is not new territory. What is new, for me anyway, is the realization that I don’t have to blog to make others happy. This is my little corner of the internet where I can express my ideas and thoughts, and occasionally share opinions that are likely to be less than popular or mainstream and that’s ok. Frankly, I’m not everyone’s cup of tea and that’s ok too, I’m not trying to be. Maybe this is a realization everyone has as they get older. I mean, I’m pushing 50, I could just be a slow learner.
None of this is to say I plan on being unprofessional, rude, demeaning, or otherwise going out of my way to be a dick. However, I am blunt and direct, choosing facts to present logical discussion or writing in this case. I am just not writing to attract a particular audience making some parts of this blog eclectic.
This blog isn’t ever going to be perfect
Another realization I have come to, is the blog is going to be ever-changing. I plan on figuring out how to get this set up in a CI/CD pipeline, so maybe the public endpoint will eventually be more stable. The purpose of the blog is to be a repo for what I learn, share it with others, and be something I learn with. Again, someone is going to point out that I should have realized this long ago. Like I said, maybe I’m just a slow learner.
Honestly, I have always been in a rush to get things stood up and finalized so I could be done with it to move on to the next goal. I’m going slow this time. I’m doing this in chunks. Maybe that’s a by-product of working in tech, you’re always in a rush to get something done and move on.
I am going to write posts for this blog with the intention of being an honest human being and not care about SEO, page rankings, or how many damn hits I get. Maybe this is my “Get off my lawn!!” moment, I’m not sure. So please, hang out and see what kind of things I may or may not say, or don’t. Either way, thanks for stopping by and I hope you have an awesome day.